Are karate players _____ or something? Why do they not anticipate kicks to the head?

Haha I was telling my friends this:

Have you seen those chinese movies whereby a child was said to be unable to live past a certain age.

At the strike of midnight on his birthday, there will be heavy rain and lightning flashing.

Then there will be weird things happening. Blackouts. Fan blades detached and flying at random etc.

Then somehow, some way, the child will die, unless there's a sacrifice of some sort made.



Okay. The rain has stopped. Time for a shower. haha

I still hear you softly whispering my name, and how, how, could I fall for somebody new?

Maturity does not come with age.

It's especially prevalent on the roads; road rage. Everyone's at least 18 years old. The average age would probably be 35. And still, you see grown men, with beer bellies, behaving like kids in a nursery on push-carts.


However there's the other group. The way they conduct themselves, the way they think, the way they behave. Impressive. Enviable. And yea, they are in their (very) early twenties).

So I'm like, "Hey, I'm not too far off from them (age)."

But what the bloody hell am I doing? What have I been doing. Screw that.
Instead, ask yourself, what should a nineteen-year-old do.






I guess that would be the answer to everything.





All you have to do is to decide what to do with the time that is given to you.
And I'm sure you can give yourself a chance.

[ Or two. :) ]




Hoi dude, what the fuck are you doing now?

Uh, nothing. I'm just idling.

Screenock
PCL surgery sucked i had it 2 years ago and still sore most of the time. i thought the cool thing about that is when i moved my leg like that it didn't hurt at all

intilli4
I got into a car accident. I am going in to have surgery again on the 19th to fix the fixed ligament.

Dude I had PCL replacement surgery also and my knee still hurts plus it also moves like yours does.

TheNatural
Ya my knee hurts too...how did u do it?

karebu
damn. then what's the point of the surgery?
i've torn my PCL.

intilli4
Nothing. I say if you can walk and it doesn't hurt then DON'T Go for it. I seriously wish I never had it.

karebu
it doesn't hurt. only at times it comes loose and it hurts just a wee bit.

but they are saying stuff about wearing the knee out and arthritis.

woah, wait. is it _worse_? and if so, in what ways? are there any advantages anyway?

can you kneel btw?

intilli4
Hurts to kneel and yes I have pain in my knee EVERY day.
Also it is very strange that their is hardly any video/documentation on PCL Surgery. I did find out that Johns Hopkins does about 30,000 + Knee surgeries a year and about 4 to 5 of them are PCL Surgeries and that 4 to 5 is single digit not thousands.


Karebu
My knee's like this http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=tzlvrcmnBSc

It's just you know, there's the dull/mild ache inside. I can still walk. Sometimes I feel the knee shift out of place but after a while it moves back and all's fine. I can even jog (with bearable discomfort).

I've just read your reply that you can't kneel. Damn. So even for _walking_ I suppose it hurts like a bitch eh? Totally no advantages for having the surgery?

Mike
After the first surgery everything was kosher but after a few months of walking around and exercising my knee the ligament slipped out of place and tore a bit. I started to experience pain again and that is why I had a second surgery. The second surgery was for fixing the PCL and making the anchor sutures tighter so this kind of slipping/tearing does not happen again. Well it did and now I am in debt from the surgeries and have the same issue that I had before but I have a different issue now. That is that the doctors don't believe me when I say that I have pain in the center of my knee and in the area where they did the incision. I just recently got fitted by a Don Joy specialist for a Custom brace that is going to push my knee back in place when it slips out. Very weird apparatus I must say but hey if it can help me walk without pain then I am SO Down for that.

Karebu
I guess I'll not go for the surgery then. So glad I found you (coz I've only been hearing things from people, and they tore ACL not PCL).

Anyway do you think t would all have been good if you got the brace before the surgery?

Mike
yeah I seriously recommend that you get fitted for a don joy brace before you have ANY Type of Surgery on your PCL. Also there is a major artery behind the PCL and most doctors who do knee surgery won't touch a PCL. Man I wish you the best and I hope you don't have to go through what I have gone through. BTW how did you hurt your PCL?

I hurt mine by slamming my knee against a car dashboard in a major freak accident

Karebu
I do have a brace (not customized though). I kinda dislike it coz it feels uncomfortable wearing it and even more so not wearing. It gives me the feeling that the longer I use it, the weaker my muscles get.

Well I play judo. I actually do not recall a single instance that left me unable to walk. It must have been some sort of cumulative effect.

My guesses are:
-Getting my leg entangled with my training partner and falling backwards (visualize someone hooking your leg and you falling backwards with your leg still being held on to) -> definitely happened more than once
-Repetitive falling and landing on the sides of my knee. (I actually tore something in my wrist as well)
-Having to drop to my knees suddenly from a standing position to execute throws.


PS: just in case you haven't heard of judo, in short, it's a japanese martial art that involves players slamming each other to the floor or trying to choke/arm-lock/joint-lock each other.
http://images.google.com/images?hl=en&q=judo&um=1&ie=UTF-8&sa=N&tab=wi

Mike
23 Photos of my Knee for you
(photos)

Karebu
woah, that's minimally invasive surgery?

Mike
The first ones where you see 3 small incisions in the top of my knee (near knee cap) that was from ortho-scopic. The long incision is from the second surgery. VERY INVASIVE. Still hurts like hell in the top area of the incision, no explanation by any doctor I have seen as to why.

Oh man. It's so freaking itchy!

The conjunctivitis does one eye at a time. At first it's the left. It's fine already.
But now it's the right eye. It's so damn itchy blah.

A store owner was tacking a sign above his door that read "Puppies for Sale."
These signs have a way of attracting children. Soon a little boy appeared at the sign and asked, "How much are you gonna sell those puppies for?"

The store owner replied, "Anywhere from $30-$50."

The little boy reached into his pocket and pulled out some change. I have $2.37, can I look at them?"

The storeowner smiled and whistled. Out of the kennel came his dog named Lady, running down the aisle of his store followed by five little puppies. One puppy was lagging considerably behind. Immediately the little boy singled out the lagging, limping puppy. He asked, "What's wrong with that little dog?"

The man explained that when the puppy was born the vet said that this puppy had a bad hip socket and would limp for the rest of his life.

The little boy got really excited and said "That's the puppy I want to buy!"

The man replied "No, you don't want to buy that little dog. If you really want him, I'll give him to you."

The little boy got upset. He looked straight into the man's eyes and said "I don't want you to give him to me. He is worth every bit as much as the other dogs and I'll pay the full price. In fact, I will give you 2.37 now and 50 cents every month until I have him paid for."

The man countered, "You really don't want to buy this puppy son. He is never gonna be able to run, jump and play like other puppies."

The little boy reached down and rolled up his pant leg to reveal a badly twisted, crippled left leg supported by a big metal brace. He looked up at the man and said, "Well, I don't run so well myself and the little puppy will need someone who understands."

The man was now biting his bottom lip. Tears welled up in his eyes, he smiled and said, "Son, I hope and pray that each and every one of these puppies will have an owner such as you."

I don't read blogs often and this is a way so late response to your entry. It's a pity people can't come clean and straight. So. I don't know. I may be talking to the wrong person. Or to myself even.


Umm. Would you believe me if I told you I did a somewhat similar confession like when I was a kid/preteen? I totally understand how you feel, but hey, no sweat about it okay. I feel honored(honored? whatever the word, the feeling is like 'woah'). Really. I don't know but honestly speaking, till today I have yet to get over the (my) embarrassment totally. Hahah.


Anyway I think I'd probably gotten into your bad books back then. It's like, fuck. I seriously do not mean to spite you but, you know, somehow almost every time you see me in/after school I'd be with a girl (sometimes different) and girls. Everytime that happens I go 'shit.....' inside.


Why, I don't know. Truthfully speaking, there are tons of nice people everywhere. You (I) don't go around liking every single one of them.



You are much more courageous than me. And I think you are beautiful, and even more so inside.




Peace. (inserts a bunny doing a peace sign emoticon)
and (this doesn't come out of my mouth often these days) God bless you.

this is bad.

my body is degenerating.

Sudden pain in the chest almost every day, It comes when I'm sitting still. On the left. Longitudinally it's between the sternum and the nipple. Latitudinally it's about 3 fingers from the nipple/about 3 ribs up. Is that where the heart is? I don't know. I think not. Should be slightly lower right? I hope so?

The left wrist is still somewhat rigid still, left knee seems to get worse with support/more attention. Can the knee function with just 2 ligaments/2 torn ligaments? Will strong muscles be able to compensate the instability?

And there's also the (new) strange unbearable itch after showering (for about half a year already). In camp or at home. Cold or hot water. Soap or no soap. It itches. They call it aquagenic pruritus. Thankfully it does nothing (cosmetically, no blisters, nothing, unless one were to scratch). It's a (probable) symptom of a blood disease - overproduction of red blood cells. Hey it doesn't sound too bad right; that means more energy. But it means that blood thickens and perhaps it decides to stop flowing.


That's all for now.

Nobody's going to read this.

yeaaa.

You taught me to be strong
You taught me to hold on
When everyone around me said "It can't be done"
And if you can't be strong
And if you can't hold on
Just remember the words you once gave to me


聞きなれた口癖いつものその仕草なんでだろ?
涙がこぼれる新しい明日が幸せであるように二度と無くさないように…

Sometimes you wake up in places you don't remember
and wonder how you got here.

when all I have is a tired smile to give






cheers.

know you should be
in the dark next to me
feel you giving in to me
lying with your body
next to me
don't you like the fantasy
don't you think you'd like to stay

Sian.

Haha. My com died. I'm not sure if it's the graphics card, motherboard or the power box.

Been trying to fix it the entire day, been hitting it(somehow hitting things helps sometimes). Guess I've lost my precious music and pics. The old me would have gone mad. Nah, no hard feelings though.

I'm still feeling burdened and tired. But it's not as bad. I've been working on myself, from outside to inside bit by bit. Packing things up and throwing out extra baggage.


2008 will be a good year.

I'll be replacing the com. And other things. Everything.


Here's karebu signing off, for the first time. haha.



param gyoli changeul heundulgo
nae kimanhan jaageun naye baang we ro
areum dap ghe byulbit deul eul
kadeuk chae wa joo neah yo
manhi apha hajimah
nal kok aneunchae dadok yeo joo myoe
jal jarah wero hae joo neh yo
keodji mot halmankeum him eh gyeo wa apha wado
noon moori apheul garyeo wado
kaatji mot hal nae sarang aphedo nan wooseulaeyo
jamshirado gyoteah hangbok hatdeun kiouk deul eul
kasoomeah gaanjik haalgheyo
du nooneah soono ahjin jeo byuldeul churum youngwanhee



I feel the wind blow in this place
There I see the stars beyond this window pane
shining so bright, here in this night
Here I feel a sense of love
Deep in my heart I cry for you
Every tear that falls feels like a wound
the stars in the skies gently shines
Taking away my pain
I hear a voice gently saying
don’t be afraid
I feel a warmth come over me
As I sleep in their embrace
And even though I do not have the strength to go on
Even though I try to hold on
This love will never ever be meant for me
But I’ll keep on smiling…
Even though my dreams wont come true
I’ll remember every moment with you
Like the stars that shine forever
I’ll treasure my love
For you

I'd like to tell you this.

I'm an unfortunate person.


Getting into a relationship is a luxury I cannot afford.

He lies on a pillow of turf and seems to weep the black river of himself.



In one final, futile gesture of self-protection, the woman and the man raised their arms to shield their faces - and wore that fretful salute into eternity.