I cannot live either way, and it is impossible not to live either way.


She told me she can't simply forget me.
But I could try.



Joni Mitchell says: If you care, don't let them know, don't give yourself away.
So I never let her know,
I never give myself away.
Never.
At least I try not to.
It's a sinking feeling though.
As if a hole had opened up and my stomach just dropped into it.


And hey you.
Don't worry.
The hurting can't last forever.
It's just a long drawn moment.




Soon it will be the morning and too I wouldn't be able to sleep. But I won't be making any phone calls, won't be leaving any messages for you. I will be taking a flight out of the country. When I head there in the air, in the same sky full of blue, I promise, I will think of you.