I always get the strangest feeling when I close my eyes and lie still.

It feels as though the entirety of my existence is hovering in a space no bigger than a small pea inside my head. At the same time though, it feels as though I'm like a canvas, stretched as much as the skies in the heavens above, feeling, touching, encompassing everything.

At that moment I have no perception of proximity; for instance the distance between my toes and my hair feels almost non-arbitrary. And in a way all my close friends feel awkwardly, yet comfortably close (almost physical) to me.

fold or hold and risk it

but strangely we were happy at that time : )

so just cherish everything now. easy to say, hard to do.

No matter what it hurts alot to give it up.

It's so close yet so distant.