I got my life summarized in the previous hour. This is the shortest and closest analogy ever (to my current situation). And it just happened to me.



You were jogging/running. You know your pace is good. Quite fast. In fact, faster than average. You kept running and with each step your pride swells.
Birth till sec school days.

Till your knee somewhat gave way. You tried compressing your knee with your palms. Tried squatting and standing like a dork. Jumping. Hoping that the stuff will somehow go back in, but it didn't seem to work.
sec sch

And so you decide to walk. All the while you had only one thing on your mind.
"Maybe I should turn around and walk back home."
"Maybe I should at least hit the halfway mark before taking a shortcut home."
"Maybe I should complete the entire 10km."

The first option would make you sound somewhat loserish, the third; you are too weak mentally to accept, and so you went along with the second option so you became somewhat like a half-wuss. But hey, it's not as bad as going back straight away, right?
end of sec sch to jc

You were there standing at the mrt station (the halfway mark) standing there like a dork and observing people.
jc

And after a long while you decided to take a train home.
Just that in my case here there does not seem to be a fast way back.

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Not exactly a good or comprehensible analogy, but here's as fast as it goes.



I'm thankful for everything I have now no matter what, because it seems that one will somehow reminisce and for some strange reason, the past has always been better. Right now - half the time I'm not doing anything, stoning my brain out, but hey. That seemed to be something I wanted to do all along. Stone myself out. Do nothing. Idle. And on top of that, this allows me much slack to think through alot of things, though, half the time I find it easier to just blank out and wait for time to pass.