I am extremely keen on repeating JC. I better go look out what private candidates have to study and things like that.
It suddenly seems crucial to secure an academic path, and hence quadruple As.
It seems too late though.


Or, for being so, am I able to think of an alternative way out, even without repeating?
Possible, but not quite likely, not that I have much faith in myself.


Do I really want the academic way out? Would I be happier? I do not think so. I remember how much/hard my mum hits me when I was young to get me to study. I remembered sitting on books to show that sitting on it doesn't make you stupid. Well, I proved it for a couple of years, and maybe it does make me stupid.


Given that you have to be powerful to make people bow down, or even look at you, what must you do? Simple. I will become the very monster I hate.


-more on this later. though the hours are rather flexible, there has to be some integrity still. i need to work.-