Friday, February 11, 2005

Useless me. Some dude(forgot who) told me that his/her fren watched constantine. It's not out yet.. I went home, got my server up, and was playing ragnarok(yes, yet again. shit.) from 3 to 9pm. I ate, and now I'm here blogging. =(

I feel like shit.

What's so entertaining about ragnarok? The graphics are nice. The skills and animations look nice. I've been playing it since I've been beta testing it for Ragnarok in 2001. And never gotten sick of it. Guess that has to be changed. Undeniably, the graphics are really nice and yeah.. just compel you to stay on..

Been looking and working at sourcecodes. Geez. Computing is another form of maths. =S

I feel sucky.

Everytime I'll play games, stay on my com, and I'll only feel guilty about playing when I feel tired. By then, I'll be too tired to do anything.

Why is it that, I just can't stay focused. Well. There are only 2 instances whereby I actually had discipline.

Sec 2 - Had this talk with deputy headmaster. Man. btw, I meetup with the deputy headmaster every year. Annual thing. Regarding my results. hah. Got scared. terminated SCV internet. Got a fine of .. close to $500 + all the weird fees for terminating before the contract matured. And by sec 3 term 1, I got an average of 70% for my subjects. i slacked again. and I had to meetup with headmaster yet again.

Sec 4 - I was on probation. Had to meet up with director of academic studies. Risk of dropping to 7 subjects. That's like. very very rare in Ri. Freaking hell. I cleared term 1. But I screwed up again after probation. Why else would I be here. fucked up school. fucked up.

Hey, primary 6 doesn't count. I'm brainless. Mum says eat shit; I'll eat shit. Doing work like mad. Fucking no life. But it paid off. It's just a pity the Raffles through train came in late.

For some reasons, I wished that I didn't mature. Probably not now. Then I won't be in kind of crisis. Procrastination and shit. Life sucks. (huh. since when did I say that. I always say, life doesn't suck. It's what in life that sucks. ya ya.)

fuck. i've got lost of things to say. but i think i'm summing them up with a 'fuck'.

feel like shit. zz.

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