It may seem that everything has been exhausted, thoughts explored, words spoken and perhaps needing a bit more action.



Does it matter that my words contradict my actions? Or is it more grave that I do not what I speak?





How do all these sum up?

Right now I'm just sitting still in my room, air-conditioned and breaking out in cold sweat.

The sensations are rather pronounced in the knees, the shins and sometimes I get visitations in the ribs and backs. I've clocked 20km daily for the past 3 weeks. They have been aggravated after runs on Thursday morning and in the evening. So I guess those were my last runs.

The past two days were quite bad. I was spamming pills in class on Friday and yesterday I was merely sitting at the dining table with my friends, not quite eating anything spicy yet perspiring profusely.


I guess there's probably more pain going to the brains than I can comprehend.